Existing in a state of In-The-Air
up there where I can’t see the ground.
Even when I am awake, it feels as though
my life is that scene in a dream where
you are falling through the sky, at superspeed,
screaming silently and anticipating the crash-landing
that never comes.
For the first time in my life, I want so badly
to plummet into the earth and end this fall of mine,
because at least I’d be on the ground.
This is not quite a nightmare but I’m still afraid
because I know I’ve been asleep for a bit too long.
I long for the day I sit up in bed, out of breath
and knowing exactly what I must do.